Friday September 25th
Program calls scare me. What if I call someone, and they sound annoyed that I called them?
Making a program call can be considered a leap of faith. We reach out to another member on the phone, hoping to speak to them about some issues with our recovery. We do not know how the call will turn out, and we may not hear what we expect, which can lead us to feel disappointed.
Dwelling on such disappointments can create resentments. It can also add to our feelings of low self-esteem and humiliation. We may think we are being “punished” for taking positive action.
Recovery seldom proceeds in a straight line. As we work our program, we will likely encounter frustrations and setbacks. If a phone call doesn’t work out the way we hoped, we can call someone else. It’s not a big deal. We can remind ourselves that others have their own priorities, and we can let this one go, as we do with other resentments. We keep using the Tools, including making phone calls, to help our sobriety.
That phone call reaffirmed my sense of connection and healing.