Tuesday, March 5th
I realized that I alone could not restore myself to sanity.
Our sexually compulsive behaviors and habitual self-reliance tended to push us away from having a spiritual life. The experience of being driven by a lower power is, for most sexual compulsives, all too familiar. Yet, the idea of a Higher Power guiding our lives may seem strange and threatening to our desire to maintain “control.”
The term “Higher Power” mentioned in the Steps is a power greater than ourselves. For some, this might evoke an image of God. This Higher Power may equate to a traditional understanding of God, an unconventional concept of God, or perhaps the group’s collective wisdom. Some program members focus on finding a Higher Power that has a positive attitude toward sex and sexuality. Each member is free to define a Higher Power that works for them.
The most significant notion to grasp is that we are not that Higher Power. Self-will is useless in the face of our compulsion.
We can use our Higher Power as the source of strength, wisdom, and acceptance, which empowers us with the freedom to make choices rather than rely on unhealthy and often dangerous sexual behavior.
I am learning to trust my Higher Power to help me take life-changing actions.