April 30th
The Fifth Step
For years, I felt defective but didn’t dare to be honest with myself.
Taking a “fearless and moral inventory” in our work on Step Four may help us recognize some of our undesirable behavior patterns.
Facing the prospect of admitting “the exact nature of our wrongs” in Step Five might arouse fear and shame and trigger us to act out compulsively. These feelings can lead to negative self-judgment. We may anticipate that others might harshly judge or ridicule us.
“Listing my resentments, fears, and sexual history was hard enough. I kept putting off revealing them to my sponsor.”
The solidity of our third Step helps us trust the process, even if we fear its outcome. We do not need to take any part of our SCA journey alone. The process of admitting our wrongs to someone else — even to ourselves — begins to unburden us from the wreckage of our past.
When we honestly admit to our Higher Power, ourselves, and another person the exact nature of our wrongs, we begin to develop humility, honesty, and integrity. When we complete Step Five, we feel spiritually lighter and can focus on those character traits that may be holding us back from further growth.
Working the fifth Step may make us feel uncomfortable, but doing so can help lighten our burdens.