Thursday, November 12th
I began to accept that my life could be different.
As sexual compulsives, many of us were driven by self-will. Sex and fantasy had become our priorities, and we often ignored or avoided other connections and responsibilities. We had become self-absorbed to the point where we could see no other way of living.
Some of us attended our first SCA meeting holding preconceived notions and skepticism about Twelve Step recovery. Our lives had been so complicated by secrecy and lies — to ourselves and others — that we feared the concepts of honesty, openness, and willingness. We were ashamed to ask for help; we could do it all on our own, as we did while acting out.
We hear others share their experience, strength, and hope at meetings and begin to think of the first three Steps as: I can’t, they can, let them. By accepting this process, we can gain the willingness to ask for help.
As we surrender our will and begin to trust our Higher Power, we open ourselves to acceptance and change. By doing so, we practice the willingness to replace harmful behaviors with affirming ones and to accept a new way of living.
Through spiritual awakening, we expand our vision and take the right actions that we previously could not do on our own.