Thursday, September 3rd
Sex was on my mind, day and night. The rest of my world had become a void.
Many of us were so self-absorbed in our active compulsion that we failed to connect our actions with their consequences. We only wanted to satisfy our urge for more and to find the oblivion we desperately sought.
For some, our view of the world narrowed until compulsive sex was all we could see. Our inability to be present may have led us to neglect family, friends, careers, or other aspects of our daily lives. Sometimes, we stopped taking care of ourselves altogether; our everyday routines became less important.
In recovery, we hear how spiritual growth can enable behavioral change. At first, these changes may seem beyond our capabilities. Yet, as we work the Steps and use the Tools, we may discover that our compulsion’s tunnel vision gradually widens to find acceptance, safety, and community. This change enables us to shift our attitudes and outlook.
We learn to care for ourselves as adults, building self-respect, self-worth, and self-liking, where we previously had only shame and self-loathing. We can fully experience our feelings without the compelling, urgent need to escape them.
With our Higher Power’s help, we show compassion to ourselves and help others, passing on the gifts we have received.