Wednesday, August 19th
August 19th – Being Present
I sought oblivion through sex.
Many of us lived in a fog of denial about how sexual compulsion had taken over our lives. For some, our compulsion revolved around fantasy and obsession; others may have used harmful or dangerous sexual activities to escape feelings of shame and self-loathing.
For many, the last thing we wanted was to face day-to-day reality. Wherever our compulsion took us, it became our refuge: a false security blanket we could not easily let go of.
In early recovery, we might focus on harm reduction: defining the behaviors we want to stop. We find the courage to share our thoughts and feelings at meetings. We learn to be rigorously honest with ourselves, others, and our Higher Power. Once we build up some trust that the God of our understanding cares for us, we start taking action to change our lives. We may find that such actions take place alongside changes in our attitude and outlook.
This spiritual growth can enable us to live in the moment. We become aware of our surroundings, interactions with others, and how we cope in our daily lives. We do not need to hold onto the past, nor do we need to agonize over the future.
Today, my needs are met. I will not worry about tomorrow until tomorrow.