Thursday, June 25th
While acting out through compulsive sex, I did not believe anyone could help me.
Before entering recovery, many of us instinctively knew that our sexual compulsion was taking us further away from any real connection. This void in our lives contributed to our shame and made us more likely to dismiss the value of any spiritual way of life.
Once we get through the fog of denial, we encounter Step Two: Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. First, we realize that we are not that Higher Power. Self-will is useless in the face of our compulsion. If we are to have any hope at all, we find a power stronger than self-will.
Our willingness to believe in a power greater than ourselves gives us the freedom to choose what that power may be. For some, it could be the collective wisdom of the group. Others may equate it to a “traditional” understanding or a new concept of God. Some program members focus on finding a Higher Power that has a positive attitude toward sex and sexuality.
Whatever our understanding, our faith in this Higher Power grows as we work through the Steps. Gradually, we gain knowledge of our Higher Power’s will, and by aligning ourselves with that will, we are able to take the next right action.
We become increasingly useful instruments of our Higher Power.