Wednesday, April 23rd
The more sex I had, the more I wanted. I could not stop.
When we first heard Step One read at a meeting, many of us equated powerlessness with helplessness. Admitting powerlessness and unmanageability was one thing, but how to gain back that power—to regain “control”—seemed out of our reach. Control still seemed the key to regaining our lives. Yet, we had tried it so often but achieved so little.
“I related to the sense of powerlessness. I felt tremendous self-loathing because I was not able to stop acting out. I was circling the drain with no way out.”
We decided to give SCA a try. We began by putting one foot before the other: attending meetings, hearing and reading some of the literature, meeting other members, and perhaps working with an interim sponsor.
“I first tried working my program to control my disease. Now I admit that I’ll never control the disease and that the way forward is to let go of the need to control.”
As we gain trust and surrender our need to control, we turn our thoughts and actions over to the care of the Higher Power of our understanding, which opens us up to become sane, serene, and sexually sober. This is what it means to “Let go and let God.”
I have seen my life expand in a way I could not have imagined.