Saturday, April 12th
I realized there had to be a better way to connect to people than through meaningless, anonymous sex.
Many of us realized that no amount of sex would fill the emptiness we felt or make our lives magically free from everyday irritations. We continually searched for ways to get out of ourselves, to escape from these feelings. However, all our efforts to escape were ineffective and fleeting. We may have escalated our sexual behaviors in frequency and intensity to find oblivion.
“I had no idea why I kept acting out. Afterward, I felt empty, dead, and filled with guilt and shame.”
For some, our view of the world narrowed until compulsive sex was all we could see. We lost sight of our true selves and any hopes we once had for the future. Our lives often seemed empty, except when we thought about, sought out, or had sex.
Hope begins when we find the courage to face our truths. When we admit we are powerless over our sexual compulsion and that our lives have become unmanageable, we open ourselves to accepting that we can be restored to sanity. By working the Twelve Steps and utilizing the Tools of Recovery, we gradually transform and expand our lives.
Being restored to sanity means we do something different to get different results.