Thursday, April 3rd
We receive without cost and give without charge.
Many of us became so self-absorbed in our sexual compulsion, focusing so much attention on sex, that it became a ritual to the exclusion of all else — and everyone else. Our compulsion fueled our isolation as we abandoned ourselves, family, friends, and community. All other considerations took second place.
We swept aside the give-and-take of daily life in the world; we had become takers only, and our thoughts moved from selfishness into a sense of entitlement.
The “hole in the soul” grew larger, and many of us despaired over finding a way to “fix” ourselves. At this point, we began attending SCA meetings, hoping to find some relief.
Nobody can say when the process of change begins, but we may notice signs throughout our journey. We sense a way to move forward by attending meetings, hearing members’ shares, working with a sponsor, and socializing with others. We learn how to be honest, open, and willing in a safe space.
We experience change both when we help others and when others help us. Service no longer feels like a chore; doing it raises our spiritual sense of connection.
I experience a daily reprieve when my program is focused on openly giving and receiving.