Thursday, February 27th
I was a victim of life, reacting to whatever self-induced drama came my way.
Some of us have suffered traumas stemming from childhood. As we grew up, other harms may have reinforced those childhood traumas, adding to our feelings of shame and low self-esteem. We soon discovered that sex provided a short reprieve from these emotions by allowing us to feel powerful. However, that feeling often did not last, leading us to search for more sex as a means of escape.
The more sex we had, the less connected to others we felt. Low self-esteem and our feelings of worthlessness could make the search for sex even more desperate. It seemed easier to think of ourselves as helpless victims of this intensifying cycle. This belief often led to anger, the desire to “get even,” and a sense of entitlement. Look what they did to me.
When we feel this way, the spiritual program of SCA asks us to stop and take a deep breath. It is possible to shift our focus from being a victim. We do so by sharing at meetings, working the Steps, and connecting with other members. By doing so, we develop compassion and forgiveness.
Today, I breathe, pray, and reach out to others.