Thursday, October 31st
I felt unable to connect with and trust this Higher Power I heard about in meetings and read about in Twelve Step literature.
In early recovery, we hear that a Higher Power can somehow “restore us to sanity.” We also listen to others share in meetings about how they grew to trust in their Higher Power.
Many of us struggle with how to define and what to expect from such a power. We may accept that we are not that power, nor is our compulsion. But we might not be ready to place our trust in something we have trouble defining.
We might begin to accept that our Higher Power can be part of our being — perhaps a force within us that we had chosen to ignore in our compulsive state. This power doesn’t control events but can guide us as we make decisions and take positive actions.
Some of us may come to believe that the wisdom and love in the rooms can serve as our Higher Power. Placing trust in a Higher Power is a leap of faith. When healing begins, we may feel affirmed by such faith and can ask for guidance in both good times and bad.
I trust my Higher Power to guide me, however imperfectly I do so.